ahh ash stymest ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

the farewell nite, 

the girls went crrrraaazyyyyy but it was non-stop laughing and screaming, 

act like a bunch of drunk girls.

it was fun fun fun fun fun.

_______________________________________________

and the next day, here comes the day

when all the laugh turn into tears and every hug felt so warm i wouldn't let it go.

my feeling was like rollercoaster, extremely up and down :'(

it was so sad, i couldn't cry.

the truth is i cry rite away i'm on my way home alone.

woaahh, it feel like shit.

well see you soon samantha,

my pretty eyes girl, my melancholic person, my favourite, my bestest friends :')

this one is the farewell card.

so much memories inside.

this one is for the farewell mug.

farewell dear bestfriend.

i make u this because i love you so much, it hurts to see u go :'(

Miike Snow - Burial

i love this song soo much

can't stop laughing over this creature.

( despicable me, 2010 )

dear samantha,

you are my bestest friend among my bestfriends.

i'll miss you like hell here.

there's no one closer to my heart but you.

today,

i'm not well.

dear migraine, go away please.

i hate how you change me into this person.
i hate how you make me feel like i'm nothing when i'm crying.
i hate how you look at me when i'm crying.
i hate how you make me change into this person who like to hide my feeling.
i hate how you can suddenly make me feel like a crap.
i hate how you think my feeling to my friends is not important.
i hate how you force me to understand everytime you're not around.
i hate how you force me to grow up.
i hate how you always say that i'm not changing myself for you.
i hate how you always say what i'm feeling is unreasonable.
i hate how you think my friends who always listen to my 'unreasonable' feeling are not as important as you.
i hate how you make me not comfortable holding you or huging you or even touching you when i'm about to cry.
i hate how you make me feel i have no one to rely on.
i hate how you change me into this person who think it's better to live without feeling.
i hate how you make me feel how childish i'm when i'm about to showing what i really feel inside about something.
i hate how you force me to feel ok not going with friends on weekend.
i hate how you make me hold my feeling.
i hate how you make me not needy.
i hate how you force me to be though.


i hate how fine you are in this relationship with me having a problem putting a big expectation on you.




(legaaaa)
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dear bintan,

i know

but

posser asshole.

(candy, 2006)

recently, i watch this movie again, 

this film was beautiful in an odd way but kinda love watching it.

i love this song,
and this scene.

dear God,

sometimes i forget how lucky i am to have a parents like them.
sometimes i forget how lucky i am to have a family.
sometimes i forget how to be thankfull for all of that.

so,
thank you & forgive me, God.

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i take this photo few days ago when i'm with my boyfriend on motorbike ride.

everytime i hug him from behind while he's on the wheel, he always holding my hand and i feel warm.

i just lean on his back and smiling like there's no tomorrow.

mamamia.

i want it. because it represent my lovelife :)

i like you

hey you, the one with blue t-shirt and adorable glasses 

look this way, i like you hihihi.

jobless and my eyes still sleepy all noon.

whyyy.

i've been having a several serious talking with some friends about relationship.

and i don't know is it right or not. 

but i feel that my act to not putting hope to your partner while you in some relationship,  

it's kinda make it easier for you to go through.

some friends said, conflict make your relationship go stronger.

but i don't like drama. is it make mine weak?

some friends said, the relationship between you and your partner is like gambling.

but i found gambling is useless and wasting time. is it make mine wasting time too?

lately, a lot of my friends is having a hard time at their relationship. some of them even break up.

i'm very devastated to hear all of it. and also make me feel hesitation on everything.

so now, i choose not to putting a big hope on my relationship.

i'm too scared to get hurts in the end.

so i don't care people telling me that i'm sort of lack of communication person or flat person. 

it just the preventive way how to deal with the word 'end'.

if it happy ending, so i'm blessed. if it not, it's ok.

in the end, everyone have their own ways, their own choices to avoiding getting hurt.

itu betul ri.

너무보고싶다 

내가 당신 옆에 오늘밤 잠을 싶지만 

그리고 키스 당신은 ♥

난 정말 당신을 사랑 , mr. krek 

ok, i admit it, i was so annoyingly drowned by this korean drama series in the last 3 days.

HAHAHAHAHA.

개인의 취향

(personal taste)

Jeon Jin Ho & Park Kae In

The perfect dream date is watching vampire weekend live with you, Michael Austin Cera.

(ngayal aja uda bikin deg2an malu2 kucing *blushing)