should i swim along?

i have this really strange feeling. about me. about you. about us.

and the ironic thing is i'm having a serious issue about sharing deep emotion to anyone. somehow i can't do it. i lost words and avoiding it. saying "it's nothing" to my own mind. i can't stop thinking. because we both are leo, born with the same month. 
do you feel this too? do you avoiding sharing a deep emotion too?

i saw this movie. about how people close to each other, seeing each other everyday but the fact is they don't understand each other. and suddenly i kinda feel that way about us. somehow it feels related to what we had now.

is it true that romance only exist in movie? is it true love just something that some poet or writer made up? is it true couple only need commitment to get through? if one of them make a mistake and break the commitment so what should be the reason for them to stay together? if the reason is love, what kind of love?

i admit that i'm the person who always hide inside the comfort zone. am i only afraid loosing my comfort zone? am i only to scare to be alone? if yes, is it wrong?

it feels like all of this is sinking into an unknown object. i still questioning it, wheter i should scream histerically asking for help or should i silently saving myself or should i swim along?